As a kid, I was never really into Ryan, Bam or anyone who associated with them, I thought they were very childish. But going into the 8th grade (2004) changed that. I got stuck with people who loved the Jackass crew (and the CKY Crew) so I decided to give it a chance. the first thing I watched, was the Arbor Day episode of Viva La Bam, the first thing I seen was a huge tree falling to the ground, and I was thinking “Are these people out of thier damn minds!?” Within minutes I was literally rolling on the floor with laughter, to the point to where I was gasping for air.
From there, I was absolutely hooked. I followed whatever the guys did, and became completely infatuated with thier lifestyle. I loved both the Jackass crew and the CKY Crew, Ryan being at the top of that list. To this day, the Riot Control Test is still my favorite Jackass stunt, Ryan being one of the reasons why. You could just tell he was dreading that thing, and it made it all that more hilarious! One thing that I thought was extremely adorable was Ryan pulling Bam out of the snake pit in Jackass 3, it just showed how great of a friend he was.
When I heard what happened, it was early in the morning, and I was at my friends house, because she was going to do my hair. I got on Facebook, and saw a post that said RIP Ryan Dunn, I immediately thought it was a mistake (or a sick prank) and googled it and it was true. After that, I told my friend(who was also a fan) and the rest of the day was kinda depressing. I ended up going home early and was listening to my iPod, and a certain song came on and that’s when I broke. I swear, I cried for four days straight. I never thought that I would actually full on bawl over someone that I never even had a chance of meeting, but Ryan, along with every other Jackass/Viva La Bam member touched me in a way that I can’t even begin to describe. They could make me laugh when nothing else could, and the fact that one of them is gone now, it just doesn’t seem right.
Watching Bam and April cry like that, really brought everything home, and really put everything in perspective. Ryan was gone and he wasn’t coming back.
Afterwards I got on my computer, and watched everything I could find with Ryan in it. Even though it was really hard, and I cried through most of it, I knew that’s what he would have wanted me to do, to watch his stuff and to laugh until I couldn’t breathe. I am planning on getting a tattoo for him, and I made a tribute video for him.
I also couldn’t wait to see Living Will. I had been waiting on that movie for about a year, and when I thought back to the plot I broke down again. The first thing I thought about was maybe, that was Ryan’s way of saying that if anything ever happened to him, to not be sad, and to laugh at the memories he gave us and that he would always be with each and every one of us and he would always be watching over us(which is a pretty scary thought, when it comes to Ryan Dunn lol) and that he would never leave us.
I finally got to see it, and all I kept thinking back to, is one: Ryan’s not here anymore, which made me want to break down. And two: he would want me to laugh at the stupid shit he said and did, not to mope about it, so that’s what I did:) Ok, I’m just rambing now so I’ll stop. But Ryan, thank you for putting a smile on my face when noone else could. I will never forget you, and anytime I trip, I’ll think of you:) I love you Random Hero, and I’ll see you on the other side.